Wednesday, April 30

hmm...don't know if i'm going to buy this one...haha, named after my most despised dmb song 'true reflections'. bottom of the alissa list© of dave matthews band songs. guess i don't want to hear boyd when i could be hearing dave.

been a slacker here...busy at work, and once again, just more cornbread. 8 batches at a pioneer festival on saturday! didn't burn a single one. *pats self on back*. i need to find someone who can make good chili to go with the cornbread!

dave and tim at umass...awesome. had a great time...more later...happy hump day. :)

'the future is no place to place your better days'

Monday, April 28

found this story today on the REI website...i hope y'all enjoy it as much as i did. i wish i could travel all the time... :) (but, it's no wonder my car has 75K miles in 3 years!)

the most powerful reasons to travel...
by Rob Sangster

St. Augustine was right."The world is a book," he said, "and those who do not travel read only a page."

In the big picture, the planet on which we circle our sun is infinitesimally tiny. From the human perspective, however, it is also incredibly rich in landscape and life forms, wonderfully diverse in philosophy and potential. We owe it to ourselves to explore our home planet at close range.

I often wonder why so many of us limit our explorations to those periodic escapes we call "vacations." Let me be clear. I make a distinction between travel and vacation. To me, travel means interacting personally with the people and culture of another place, inhaling its essence. It does not require great amounts of time and money. It does require an effort greater than lying on a beach or attending the theater.

When it's over, the typical vacation may have produced some brief pleasures, perhaps even enough to offset the pressure of planning it. The sad thing is that so much more is possible.

One of the main reasons people don't travel farther and longer is that they underestimate the wonders waiting for them in the lesser-known world. True travel, like reading a book by an insightful author, can be a life-changing experience. Let's think about what makes travel worth the trouble.

Travel is an opportunity to think of beginnings and endings, to challenge inhibitions, to experience pure joy.

Picture a cheetah bounding across an African savanna. Or the lights of the ships in Hong Kong harbor sparkling like stars in Never-Never Land. Or think of the Sistine Chapel, Inca stonework, China's Li River flowing like liquid jade between ebony mountains.

One of travel's greatest rewards is that of giving us new perspective. Freed from the cocoon of home, a traveler learns how people live in the rest of the world, what they care about. After you've been to Beijing, television coverage of helmeted soldiers beating students to the pavement in Tienanmen Square affects you in ways that people who haven't been there simply cannot appreciate.

As a traveler, you develop a deeper understanding of the strivings of billions of humans, of lives filled with achievement, as well as lives filled from dawn to dusk with hard work and hopelessness. And you realize how much of what you'd accepted as universal truth is based on only the values of the country, even the neighborhood, in which you grew up.

In the fable of the "Blind Men and the Elephant," one blind man puts his arms around the elephant's sturdy front leg and says, "This animal resembles a tree." Another grabs the trunk and insists the elephant is like a giant snake. A third runs his hand along the great flank and declares that, "An elephant is very like a wall." In the same way, it's hard to have an accurate perspective on life when experience is limited to a single culture.

Another reward of travel is exposure to the greatest beauty of man and nature: the architectural brilliance of cathedrals and castles; the breathtaking majesty of the Himalayas. Overflowing with artistic expressions from a dozen cultures, you begin to appreciate the endless facets of beauty.

Traveling responds to the call of special places and special interests. Perhaps you've always wanted to walk the colorful streets of Kathmandu or to return to the 'old country' to see where your ancestors lived. Maybe you've always wanted to sail to Madagascar to seek rare orchids, paddle Peru's Tambopata River in search of nearly extinct birds, or scuba dive along Australia's Great Barrier Reef. Whether it's art, food, Siberian tigers, or just better weather, travel can gratify your special interests.

While on the road, you are summoned neither by a ringing phone nor by a yard waiting to be mowed. Instead, there's time for contemplation, even solitude. Travel provides time for setting new priorities, deciding how to allocate your time when you return.

For some, travel means meeting personal challenges, such as trekking, diving, or climbing; stretching physical capabilities, awakening what someone called the "adrenaline angel." Planning a complicated trip, say to a half dozen Asian countries, is no easy task. When you return, having successfully solved every problem along the way, you feel competent, full of confidence.

Flaubert said that, "Travel makes one modest; you see what a tiny place you occupy in the world." The fact is that earth itself is only a dot in the universe, not really the center of anything. At the very least, we should satisfy our curiosity about it.

As Western nations increase trade with the three billion people who live in the less-developed world, knowledge of that world gained through traveling becomes a major business asset. On a resume, visits to less-traveled places imply independence, confidence, and energy.

People temporarily overwhelmed by a lost job, a failed relationship, or the daily treadmill, may travel in search of breathing room. Others, looking ahead to career and family, feel it might be now or never for the big overseas experience.

More than a few people hit the road with romance on their minds. They've heard about the allure of men or women in foreign lands and decide to see for themselves. Some relationships pass with the sunset, some are vivid for years, and a few last a lifetime.

After the daily exercise and mental stimulation experienced on the road, you return full of energy and plans, eager to get into action.

The longest-lasting travel memories are of people. As we travel, we trade life stories, speak our minds, break free from familiar roles. Staying in touch with friends made on the road, local people as well as other travelers, is one of life's pleasures.

Travel stimulates many emotions, mostly positive. But you may find yourself in the midst of people living in wretched conditions. Seeing such people as individual human beings rather than electronic images on a TV screen may arouse your compassion, compelling you to take action to improve their conditions. It doesn't happen to all travelers, but it could happen to you.

In Hemingway's view, "If you are lucky enough to have lived in Paris as a young man, then wherever you go for the rest of your life, it stays with you, for Paris is a moveable feast." In other words, memories of travel experiences are treasures beyond measure.

In the end, travel is freedom. Freedom from the weight of possessions, freedom from ruts; freedom to be the person you think of yourself as being.

With so many powerful reasons to travel, can any of us afford to stay rooted at home plate? The world is waiting. See it for yourself

Wednesday, April 23

glad to know we are more complex than bread mold...

who comes up with these things?

been a hectic week, teaching 8am - 10pm everyday. i baked lots of cornbread, of course, and think i have finally perfected it - no burnt bottom, no mushy center. even got a 'best cornbread i ever ate!' from some of the kids. see? my cooking isn't *that* bad!

Monday, April 21

this weekend, i did 'nothing for the fun'. it was wonderful. highly recommended. :) my head needed it.

two 3 day groups back to back this week. long week. i'm teaching something like 8 pioneer classes. i'm going to be a pro at baking cornbread in a dutch oven on the fire. hmm, wonder if i can make chocolate cake that way, too? (need to find SOME practical use for this skill...)

Friday, April 18

hmm, i swear i only took this quiz once...it appears i am grey street...appropriate. :)
in need of change
Grey Street


What Dave Matthews Song Are You?

Wednesday, April 16

when i'm working a ton, i don't always have a ton to say - unless it's about work, which isn't always all that exciting. (not that i don't love what i do, but do y'all want to hear about 10 year olds all the time? :) ) it's sunny and gorgeous here. kinda hot. and we can't wear tank tops anymore because some parent complained. it's fucking HOT in a tshirt in this humidity. i went to old navy and bought tshirts with the tiniest sleeves i could find. not a tank, but better than a regular t. sewed some fun patches on the front. the 'designed' t's were $12 and the plain ones were $5, so i bought two plain ones and decorated them myself. :) put a sun patch on the front and a tiny ladybug partch on my shoulder on one, butterflies on the other.

random, but now that it's become more of a rarity, i've been listening to stay a bunch. when i bought before these crowded streets way back when (95, i think) that was my favorite song. i didn't like the darker feel of that cd at first. of course, now it's my favorite cd - likely even a desert island cd. :D something to think about today...doing 'nothing' is very underrated...may the good times never end...

We were
Just wasting time
Let the hours roll by
Doing nothing for the fun
A little taste of the good life
Whether right or wrong
Makes us want to stay, stay, stay, stay, stay for awhile

Then later on the sun began to fade
And then, well, the clouds rolled over our heads
And it began to rain
Oh, we were dancing mouths open
We were splashing and the tongue taste
And for a moment this good time would never end


You and me
You and me
Just wasting time
I was kissing you
You were kissing me love
From good day into the moonlight
Now a night so fine
Makes us wanna stay, stay, stay, stay, stay for awhile

Wasting time
I shall miss this thing when it all rolls by
What a day
Wanna stay, stay, stay, stay, stay for awhile

Friday, April 11

yet another quote, but i really like this one. when you have the word tattooed on your stomach... :)

"hope is a state of mind, not of the world. hope, in this deep and powerful sense, is not the same as joy that things are going well, or willingness to invest in enterprises that are obviously heading for success, but rather an ability to work for something because it is good." -vaclav havel

Wednesday, April 9

hmm...i wrote this on nancies, after a guy said something about not understanding why a girl would stay with a guy who didn't treat her well...in an attempt to explain, and realized some things about myself...i know this isn't the most interesting stuff to read, but this relationship stuff has been crowding out everything else that is in my head right now...

haha, i'm currently in the process of ending a marriage where i was on the recieving end of those beer burps...

but to explain why i have been in this relationship longer than i probably 'should' have...

not to make any excuses for the guy's rude behavior, but it typically is something that is much better in the beginning, and degenerates (if the relationship isn't working) as time goes on. from the woman's side, i think it also becomes more and more irritating as you grow frustrated in the relationship. (i swear i had days where i said to myself 'if he [insert various rude guy behaviors here] without saying excuse me (or something similar), that's it. i'm done.'

(of course that's not remotely the way it ended...because the real reasons are so much deeper than that)

if the guy she's dating is a 'jerk', he probably wasn't always that bad or she wouldn't be with them. likewise, what you hear is always all the bad stuff...i know i have been bitching about my relationship for a long time, but there were always some 'good parts' still there, those moments where you think, 'well, if it can be good like this, maybe i can save it....'

when my guy friends were so much more thoughtful than my husband had been being, i realized that i couldn't stay where i was, that things could be better.

it's not black in white - being treated 'well' does not make everything else in the relationship good, just as being treated 'badly' does not make everything in the relationship bad.

'on the corner of grey street at the edge of the world...'

emotions and feelings don't change overnight, and i think it's often easier to hang on, even when things are bad, because the thought of all you'd have to go through to end it is overwhelming...

on another note, i personally don't like the 'challenge' aspect - almost every one of the guys i've been with has been a friend first...which usually meant that we communicated well, understood each other, etc...you can't *make* somebody like you, i think those types of feelings are deeper inside of you, something nobody can control...

i don't think 'rules' are the answer - communication and honesty are more helpful. :)

haha, all this before coffee. probably doesn't make any sense.

Saturday, April 5

i was wondering what night last week was the new moon because it was so dark onour night hikes and found this website. maybe not too aestheically pleasing, but there's a neat feature showing the moon cycles for almost every date. my first and 12th birthdays had full moons. :)

wow...they're releasing a red rocks CD soon, and from the tracklisting, it looks like it's going to be an amazing disc. funny that's it's advertised as being available at best buy. strange. i wonder if it will be available anywhere else...

Track Listing:
1. Bittersweet - Big Head Todd and the Monsters
2. The Best of What's Around - Dave Matthews Band
3. Ghost - Indigo Girls
4. Simple - Phish
5. Hate to Lose Your Lovin' - Little Feat
6. Close Your Eyes - String Cheese Incident
7. Give - Widespread Panic
8. Alone - Blues Traveler
9. Aint Wastin' Time No More - The Allman Brothers Band
10. Company - Rickie Lee Jones

it's spring here. well, i assume it's pretty much spring everywhere, being after march 21, but it really looks like spring here. :) i've never lived in someplace where i was surrounded by the woods - i have loved watching the seasons change. the bright green tips of the emerging leaves makes for a gorgeous landscape. after many months of bare branches, it's a refreshing sight. i now understand the crayola shade of 'spring green'. (they have a color now named 'fuzzy wuzzy brown'. on the count of three 1..2..3...awwwwwww :) ) i never liked that green much when i was growing up, but i think i will have a newfound like for it. midnight blue was always my favorite. (apparently many others like it - it's ranked at #4 on the crayola favorites list) happy spring!

Tuesday, April 1

happy april fools day - april fool's day? (hmm, i don't even know which is correct!)...i'm not good at thinking of pranks, but we're filling a coworker's room with balloons (floor to ceiling) while he's out running this morning...and be sure to check out the exciting new format of nancies.org today. ;)

the people sitting around me at all three shows were there for the music, aside from the two girls sitting in front of me in boone who had an 'ohmygod, that is sooo cute!' kind of conversation 3/4 of the way through bartender -until i asked them to please hold it down...it took restraint to last that long before asking them to be quiet! this was met by dirty looks, but they left the show 3 songs later. :) the crowd sitting around you really does make a difference. i usually have terrible luck - always behind couples making out or people talking or tall people or....you know what i mean. and in boone, i didn't even have people sitting in front of me after the first 4 songs! woo! all kinds of good karma - just no say goodbye karma. :( (though, i really can't complain. :D)