some mornings i wake up - maybe it's from a bad dream i never seem to remember - with this sense of helplessness, worry, and a terrible feeling i'm in the wrong place. at the wrong time. doing the wrong thing. hence, i was wide awake at 4:30am.

why don't i ever wake up with the feeling that i know what the right place and right things are? i guess that will just happen at the right time.