"Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable."


in 3 weeks i am finished with school. my second degree...woo! (glad this one only took 9 months, though. :) ) i've been a bit apprehensive...maybe it's just because for me there always seems to be 'something' that won't allow me to fully relax. i couldn't figure out why school ending would cause so much worry.

then i thought back to what happened the last time i graduated, 6 years ago (holy shit, how was that 6 years ago? it just flew!)...i would always joke about that next year of my life, how it couldn't possibly get any crazier and now i could handle anything. (ha! who was i trying to fool?) graduate, move, new job, sister marries, buy house, mom passes away, get married, quit job, start business. all happened right after my graduation in spring of 99. though seeing as now i am divorced and am living in a new country waiting for immigration paperwork to process, who could've guessed where my life was going?

maybe i want something more stable and that is why the graduating scares me. i know i want 'the' job in outdoor education. though i've gotten to work some fantastic teaching placements in outdoor education, the biggest thing i've learned is how difficult those jobs are to get. there are many people in waterloo waiting for someone to die, retire or have a baby so a position opens up.

i'm sure many new excting doors will be flung open in the next few months...i just wish i wasn't so worried i'd be hit in the face by one! :)