this is a test: alissa delaney

after reading sheptastic, i tried my name. all that came up was that damn picture of me from the great pyrenees picinic. and a star trek page. wanna see if this works. you search 'how did gap clothing start out' and you get my page, why the hell can't you get my page searching my name?

someone posting on nancies yesterday about fight club made me go dig out the book. i forgot how much i like it, the emotion it brings out.

you have a class of young strong men and women, and they want to give their lives to something. advertising has these people chasing cars and clothing they don't need. generations have been working in jobs they hate, just so they can buy what they don't really need.

we don't have a great war in our generation, or a great depression, but we do, we have a great war of the spirit. we have a great revolution against the culture. the great depression is our lives. we have a spiritual depression.

i think this hits home for many of us - we don't want to be slaves to our pointless desk jobs, pushing paper for some giant industry so the ceo can have his bmw and swimming pool. we want to LIVE. i find it hard - i was taught to want that life. to want more. money. bigger houses. better cars. stuff. that is 'success'.

is it really, though? i have some serious doubts. i am living that lifestyle in a lot of ways, and there is a hollowness to it. you buy more, you want more, to fill up that space. but i have found that the only thing that will fill that space is actually living - going out and doing the things i want to, enjoying time in beautiful places with wonderful people just enjoying life. it's hard to turn your back on the first 20-something years, though, and look for something different.

imagine, when we call a strike and everyone refuses to work until we redistribute the wealth of the world